Give me Your eyes so i can see, everything that i keep missing.

hello. i am going philippines this coming monday with my course for 5 days! honestly i feel very mixed up. having mixed feelings. i am kind of dreading it because of all the living condition and how everything's like so rushed... and it's pretty expensive for a 5-days trip to a fishing village. $900++!!! hahaha. sorry for complaining but even my hk trip for 7 days is cheaper! and apparently the toilet is 2km away (i hope my teacher was kidding) without lights, heater, flush... and it's home-stay!! and everything there is muddy and poke-ish we cant wear our slippers and all... and i'll be cut of totally from singapore.... because there won't be any network there, no socket no electricity at all! aww will miss my mommy and daddy and cel and gab!! and of course all my friends. <3

the silver lining? we are going to the slum area, smoky mountain. (you can google it) it's the place where the poorest of the poorest live in. it's actually just a huge rubbish dump. and i'm kind of excited, to meet the kids there... i wanna give them my dresses and accessories! and ya i wanna hugggg them. :) they need to know a God out there loves them... and i wanna share the gospel with the family i'm gonna stay with. so ya. they are actually worth it. the toilet. the money. the heat and all the discomfort. and anyway deep into thoughts i kinda wrote a poem for them... pardon me.





all those people they never get a proper place to rest
all those little girls, most will never get to wear a dress.
nor will the little boys get to gel their hair.
they would never know how precious they are in the sight of their Father
how He loves them like no other.

so where are we, what are we doing here.
will you leave your place of comfort
will you go beyond the dirt
will you be God's outstretched arms,
arms for the broken-hearted.

will you live to carry His compassion
will you go the extra mile
to love a world that's lost and broken?

I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”

-2 Cor 12:8-9

You hold me now- hillsong.

VERSE 1:

On that day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace
All my fears swept away
In the light of Your embrace
Where Your love is all I need
And forever I am free


PRE CHORUS 1:
Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven
Rise to You alone

CHORUS:
No weeping no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now
You hold me now


VERSE 2:
In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails
Where Your Name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day


PRE CHORUS 2:
Where the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven
Rise to You alone


BRIDGE:
For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your Name

My Lord, My love.

in Your presence, all my sorrows are gone.
the hurt and the pain, they are all fading away.
the shame and the guilt, they are being wiped off.
all my worries and cares, they are in Your hand.

i just want to be in Your presence.
forever.

Oh Lord, You're beautiful

<sup>Oh Lord, You're beautiful.
Your face is all i see.
For when Your eyes are on this child,
Your grace abounds to me.

I want to take Your word and shine it all around.
But first help me just live it Lord.
And when i do it well, Lord help me to never seek a crown.
For my reward is bringing glory to You.


Matthew 11:28-30
28</sup> Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Your grace is enough.

hello!! just wanna show u all the ring i made :):) anyway im having IT class now... NOT FUN... and just realised that i end at 1 today!! yay!!! gonna go street-e after school in school with eugene! kind of excited. and ya i have lots to do and lots of DEADlines.

but i know Your grace is sufficient for me... :)

and this is just some random funny fail jumpshot with vivi!!

toodles~~~

Blessed to have a friend like you.

love the reflection... even the moon is reflected...

night lights, sound of the waves, huge bright moon, chocolate pudding, the two of us and God. <3

A new wind.

hello. here are some pictures to add some feelings~~ to my blog!!

 went out with fayth to study on tuesday!! :) had half-priced starbucks. drank strawberry cream (not nice though)... but it was an awesome day! love you fayth! :) one of her criteria for her future spouse: cannot have bad grammar. hahaha.

 and went to jeremytan's 21st!!!!! stayed there till about 3am... played sabotuer!! it was fun. and everything's funny after 12am.

 some candid shot i can't rmb what i was pointing at...

 the day we got scolded by our photography teacher.... heh.

 -for entertainment purposes-

 oh yes i did not mention about my bad haircut... did i?

 net rally~~ theme: olympics!

scrabble chocolates.

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even though it's been so difficult
i've fallen and fallen
but i know You've never left me
Your arms surrounded me
Your right hand it upholds me
i know it in my spirit
and i feel it in my heart-
a new wind is coming.

You alone are my heart's desire.

Trust, trust in the Lord
lean not on your own understanding.
in all, all of your ways, acknowledge Him.
He'll make your paths straight.

You'll be my guide for life
i'll walk by Your side
with Your hand in mine, i'll go where You lead me.

My eyes can only see
the ground beneath my feet.
Your dreams are greater,
Your ways are higher...
oh Lord, please show me.

Oh, trust, trust in the Lord,
lean not on your own understanding.
in all, all of your ways, acknowledge Him.
He'll make your paths straight.

was just feeling so so overwhelmed today but this song i used to sing sing as a child came to my heart. trust. Lord, i'll trust in You. even though it hurts, and it's so difficult. even though i do not understand. but Lord, You're the one i love. You're the one my heart desires. You're the one i want to be with. Lord, you can have everything.. you know all things, Lord. i have nothing else to offer. i am poured out before You like water. 

You are the same God, the same heavenly Daddy i trust as a young girl. You are the same. You are still faithful. You are still the unfailing God. You are still the one that loves me most. that knows me best. that gives me grace. that carries me in Your loving arms. 
Lord, i love You. i will trust in You.  

Covered by Your grace, so free.

sometimes you'll never know how much things can actually affect you until you come face to face with them. today i had to search for a social problem at this hawker center near NP for my assignment! i ended up talking to this 70 year-old man. he told me about his lifestory. he works overtime as a cleaner to make sure his wife doesn't have to work. he doesn't want his kids to support him. and he only earns $1000plus a month. he is a little blinded in his left eye because he was a police and got into an accident when he was chasing after someone. he has been drinking for 50 over years, he tried to quit many times but he couldn't. but when i told him Jesus can heal him, Jesus can give him peace, he responded with such a child like faith. He was like "zhen de ma?" (really??) it really touched my heart.. his voice was filled with such hope and joy. it was so moving... i actually walked away crying. if you know me i was never a person who cries in movies etcetc.. but really, God is just so amazing... as long as we are willing and we believe, there's nothing that's impossible for God. let's have unstoppable faith. because God is an unstoppable God. deep inside everyone, old or young, there's a child within them. a child-like heart that God loves. the one thing that is so precious in His sight. God made us that way. and He loves us the way He made us. i love you tooo.. God bless you.. :)

I was made to be loved by You.

it doesn't matter what hapens,
because i am loved by You
and that's enough for me.

Deep. Dream.

made these roses for my mommy for mother's day!! the blue one's my favourite. :) 

and went out with this dearie today. :) haha. we both decided that we will shave bald when we go missions. so we don't have to shampoo our hair or take great care of it. just kidding about the shampoo-ing part. we are not that gross. :)

and i just really can't thank God enough for placing those people He has placed in my life! had an in-depth chat with Fayth just now! how much we've grown since... we were 7years old!! awww. love her so much :)

and i really loved today's sermon by Pst Jeremy. "our character must match up with our dream."

My dearest Daddy. :)

sometimes all we need to do is to sit in God's presence. 

are You not enough for me?

hello... so howas your day? school was fine (except the fact that business management is really boring i cannot take it..)... and having vivien around totally changes everything, i really thank God for her.. :) can't believe we are still so close after all the extreme rollercoaster rides our friendship been through. all i can say is- thank God for His faithfulness in our friendship. really thank you for being someone i can always always pour my heart out to... really, there are some things i can tell no one else but you (& reb of course, i didnt forget u. :) ). you are so dear to me. wished we had more time to talk though.

although life has been pretty hectic and difficult, God always whispers this verse to my heart...

"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want." -Psalm 23:1.

just a word from you Lord, brings great comfort to me. i know You are enough. through all the ages, Your love never changes. my heart finds its rest in You.

little ones to Him belong,

they are weak but He is strong.

To the One who covers me with grace, i'm singing.

 pretty right... see, punggol is a beautiful place. :)

 david's going armyyyy!!

 cheekit.. going army too :(

i love my maroon stockings and the flowery high cuts my momsie got for me... aww. :)


anyway yesterday we had net at a riverside in punggol. :) it was a beautiful place! really... and we really believe one day our net's gonna grow and our houses can't contain them! so we are gonna go back to that riverside one day. and it's our dear net leader, david's last net!! made him a card. :) apparently he said we touched his heart.... hahahaha.


and ya... so both of my study buddies are going into army this week. how time flies huh! it seems like only yesterday when we were studying in bk everyday for my o's and for their A's! now i'm already in a new school!!


speaking of which, has been very tiring for me... but i couldn't have survived without God's grace... He's just always there for me.... i love God... He has been challenging me to let go of some stuffs... and definitely, not easy stuffs. some i know it's difficult, some i know it's gonna hurt. but deep down i know it's okay to go through them, i know God's grace will see me through... i know even when i fail, He will never fail. He will never let go of me. when i fall, He will catch me. when i'm too weak, He'll give me strength. when i'm being attacked, He will arise from His dwelling place and fight for me. Lord, you can have everything... Lord you know all things... you know how i feel about it... you know what i struggle with, you know my limitations... 
 help me Lord, cleanse me, carry me through... you are all i rely on. come, and take every part of me. 


but as for me, I trust in You. -Psalm 55:23.